Procrastination

I am the queen of dodging the task that actually needs to be done, head gets too easily distracted and then nothing productive is ever achieved!!!

My life at the moment is split into so many different… lets call them zones.

Zone 1 - Being a mum

Zone 2 - Being a wife

Zone 3 - Being a mate

Zone 4 - Renovating a house

Zone 5 - Being a makeup artist (running a business)

Zone 6 - Being a content creator

Zone 7 - Everything else.

Whilst I totally adore my work and what I get to do everyday the inconsistency can be hard for someone like me who struggles to focus. My attention span is also pretty short. Once I get started, I am off, ain’t no stopping me, but its the getting started that is hard. The overwhelm of all the zones needing me pulls me in so many different directions I sometimes I am failing at everything.

Today, I needed to get some invoices sent off to the tax man. I am avoiding this task because I am not very tech so I would rather sit here and write about it to you lot.

I also need to get to the post office but I haven’t got time because I must sort the invoices first. I also need to hang out the laundry and find a wallpaper for our hallway, book the kids clubs for the summer holidays and sort out my makeup kit ready for tomorrows wedding. Here I am though, writing to you, because this is technically work and I need to keep up on here, so this is important, but its also safe and easy. I can chat all day long.

That brings me onto the second problem I have which links into my procrastination. I am an extrovert. I bounce off from other peoples energy, drive and enthusiasm. But my job can be quite solitary, not good for me really. I also hate our rental were in. Hate is a strong word I know, were very lucky we can afford the rental whilst we complete the renovation but we have been there for over 2 years, it isn’t a home, its a house, no soul, no character, no storage, I hate it, I don’t care if it is a strong word, I fucking hate it. There.

So I write lists, I write so many damn lists but rarely tick anything off them. They are good for uncluttering my head though so that is something I guess but today I am going to get at least 4 things off. I am 100% going to the post office, will sort makeup kit out and send invoices off, I will! Laundry can wait until these things are done, it’s pretty hot so hanging up after school run? I think I can get away with that. Is this how I live life on the edge now? Daring to hang up laundry late in the day in the hope it will be dry by tonight? What happened to me?

One organised thing I did get done thus far is reply to all my emails and walk the dog BEFORE THE SCHOOL RUN, I mean I had too, its too hot to walk him later but my goodness, that is a bit of a gamechanger. I really should do that more often, probs wont though.

Anyway, I keep telling myself that when were in the house it will all be different. I will be the organisation queen. I am an optimist so I am sticking with this. Jokes aside, the house has been ongoing for 3.5yrs and it is taking up a lot of head space so I think it will make a big difference.

Anyway, it sounds like I am complaining, I really am not, promise. I have nothing but gratitude for all I have. Seriously, I do a job I love, I have a beautiful, healthy family, good friends and soon to be a fab house. I just need to be able to get on top so I can enjoy all these wonderful things.

This feel like a diary entry, soz about that, can you relate? I cant be alone on this. Any tips to help with procrastination are most welcome.

G x